Sunday, February 5, 2012

A lighter version of me



I've been trying to focus on the lighter version of me.  No, not my weight, just my whole, well...self.  It's so easy to get bogged down in the worries, ponderings, wishes, hopes, disappointments, frustrations, and general downer side of things.  There's a lot of pressure not to to air these parts of ourselves as well so at times I think I linger in rawness just to spite people who think the purpose of life is to be happy.

I know, I know, that sounds a little harsh.  I don't mean it to.  It's not that I'm adverse to happiness, I love it.  I seek it.  I hope for it.  I'm lucky enough to say I even find it quite a bit.  But I don't think it's my purpose in life.  I think my purpose in life is to leave things a little better than I found them (don't look at my kitchen right now).  I think my purpose in life is to be a true and honest and caring wife, mom, sister, daughter, friend, neighbor, etc.

In some ways being relived of the need to be happy all the time makes life feel a little less stressful.  It allows me bad days, fat days, tired days, non days, and quiet still days.  All this said, however, I need to be careful to take a little extra time now and again to sit with the lighter side of life.  The slow mornings with PJ's on till noon.  The automatic setting on my coffee machine.  A Modern Family episode. A date night with my husband.  Aasta telling Jenna she loves her.  Jeans that fit.  You know, the really good stuff.

I feel like I have had some rough spots as of late and I want to give the crap it's due and I also want to remind myself to take some deep calming breaths now and again and get over it.  So I'm spending a moment with the lighter version of me.  The one that is about to crawl into bed and read a book with the word "hedgehog" in the title donning my granny glasses and some kick ass velour pants!

4 comments:

  1. You most certainly have done and do leave things better than you found them, buddy. And the sucky parts of life are, in some ways, an opportunity for your friends to cheer you up. Or just to enjoy the catharsis of a shared grumble or two.

    Btw, hedgehogs are underrated.

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    1. Thanks friend, you've been on my mind a fair amount lately. You're right, hedgehogs are underrated...magnificent creatures!

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  2. Long time, no see! So it is good, Sara, that you have included the picture, although, I recollect a different appearance at our Healthy Start deliberations of a few years ago! LOVE the hat. Looking forward to more.

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  3. True that! Thanks for checking in, how exciting to me that you stopped to take a look. Blessings to you!

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